A subtle blog containing the not-so-subtle thoughts, visions and dreams of Cicatrixx, a European African poet, philosopher, music producer and world traveller, currently based in Cape Town, SA.


June 25th
12:30 CPT

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Seriously, what’s up with everyone worrying so much about Nelson Mandela? I know, he’s the father of our nation, he’s a great man, he’s a worldwide anti-apartheid icon, etc. but we must realize; Madiba’s mission has been completed.

We’re all borne into these physical bodies, into this world, so that we may do what our souls can’t and transfer spiritual thought into physical reality. See, there’s many things we KNOW about ourselves. But to know is not enough. The only way to live up to your highest form of being, is by taking everything you KNOW about your true self and turning those thoughts into action, so that you may EXPERIENCE your true self.

You may KNOW that you’re humble, but won’t experience it until acting with humility. You may KNOW that you’re generous, but won’t experience it until acting generously. You may KNOW that you’re accepting toward all, but won’t experience it until you stand up for those being discriminated against.

Life’s not a theory test, no matter how many people act like it is. You can’t KNOW what’s right to do, but not do it, and call yourself righteous. On the contrary, life’s a practical test - only once our knowledge is put into action, do we become the way we think ourselves to be.

Nelson Mandela realized this. This great soul translated his deepest beliefs of love, racism, apartheid and South Africa into actions for the world to experience. And it’s when we experience the pure side of ourselves through the loving actions of others, that something within us is set in motion, and we start acting the same as they do.

Nelson Mandela has lived up to his soul’s knowledge - what he knew himself to be is what he’s become: love, humility, care, compassion, acceptance. His mission in this lifetime has been fulfilled, now it’s time for him to pass on to another one and start his next journey.

We shouldn’t fear Madiba passing on because of us losing our example; we should celebrate him passing on as our example, having been that example until the very end.

And then, we must strive to be examples until the end ourselves.

Madiba didn’t live to act as our light in the darkness; rather, he lived to show us all that we must be our own light in this world, and then, together, we can light a nation.

Thank you for your example, #Madiba.

Have a #DOAP Tuesday,
Cicatrixx.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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June 12th
13:32 CPT

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If you don’t know your own worth, how can you expect other people to know it? If I see a milk packet without a price, It’s not like Ima just say ‘okay, you look like a 10 Rand’ and call it mine. Ima ask around, and if no-one knows the price, I’ll find a different store to get my milk at.

So, before you complain about people leaving and never seeing you for YOU, ask yourself: do you?

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—  Cicatrixx 
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June 11th
20:33 CPT

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When I pray, I picture myself being where I see myself in 5 years, and thank God for all I have yet to receive as if I’ve already received it. After all, there is no such thing as ‘Time’ for God, and the power of gratitude outweighs the power of want every time.

Just as Jesus said ‘it has been done’ each time before he even committed a miracle, we too must strive to obtain the faith of believing that what we want has already come true. And by believing this - if your faith is strong enough and you match your faith with the appropriate action - you’ll be able to achieve whatever you wish.

'Faith is the assured expectation of things hoped for, the evident demonstration of realities though not beheld.' - Hebrews 11:1

Whatever it is that you want to have, want to see happen or want to be, do not give way to negative thoughts. Work on arranging your reality the way it would be if you already had what you yearn for, for you cannot add a puzzle piece to a puzzle that no longer has space. And then, once you have created the perfect spot for your new puzzle piece to fit into, and take appropriate action, the missing piece you yearn for will come so effortless, it’s as if a higher power guided it to you.

If I handed you a title deed to my house and we both signed it, you would have no doubt that my house is yours, even if you haven’t yet seen it. In this same way, picture a title deed for whatever it is that you wish to achieve, and envision signing it.

Write your name all over that sh*t. It’s YOURS now.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 31st
12:19 CPT

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And so my dad’s off to Malawi for work again. It’s ironic - I’d think the older I get, the less I’d miss him as I get used to the feeling. But on the contrary; the older I get, the more I miss him. Because the older I get, the more I come to understand him.

Our manner of thinking may be quite different, but I’ve come to realize that’s the beauty of it. It’s nice to have a father that agrees and resides with you on the topics that are deepest and closest to your heart. But having a father that challenges your beliefs, forces you to take a second look at them, and forces you to either strengthen or abandon them; that’s a father that truly teaches you.

At the end of the day, it’s not about him agreeing. It’s about him causing me to question whether or not I agree with myself. And by doing that, I grow more than I ever would have if he simply agreed.

With that said, don’t view disagreements as negative. For if there’s nobody to expose holes in your beliefs, you may just end up sailing out on a punctured boat.

Much love, dad.

Cicatrixx.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 30th
12:31 CPT

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All things require a thought and action to become reality. Our souls entered our bodies so that what we may experience what we already know in our subconscious. For instance, you may be a kind soul, but merely to know that you’re kind is not enough, therefore, you must conduct a physical act of kindness too before you become a kind person.

In this same way, you - the soul - already know all the grandest achievements that you’re capable of reaching and have been given a beautiful body to achieve them. It is when our physical life’s experience is less than what our soul knows it could be, that we feel down and depressed, the same way that a flower that stops growing would slowly die.

Therefore, if you believe yourself to be kind, act kind. If you believe yourself to be generous, act generous. And if you believe yourself to be loving, act loving. Because only once we act on our beliefs in a physical sense, do we become our beliefs.

Have a #DOAP day, Regime fam.

Much love,
Cicatrixx.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 29th
11:31 CPT

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Indeed, Jesus died for us. But not in the metaphysical way that many describe - not by pouring out his own blood onto the sand to magically and suddenly make us good enough to overcome sin. No.

Jesus passed on the way he did to illustrate to all that everything in life comes down to 2 basic emotions: love and fear. Think, and you’ll see that all decisions are based upon one of these emotions.

By walking the path that allowed him to be knowingly crucified for his beliefs, he illustrated to the world the greatness one can achieve without fear, and by sacrificing his life to teach us this, he in turn illustrated the grandest love. Jesus allowed himself to pass on the way he did to teach us to toss aside fear for our beliefs and totally embrace love for humanity. And by doing this, we will save OURSELVES and create our OWN salvation.

Jesus did not allow himself to be crucified to put himself on display as our salvation. He allowed himself to be crucified to put on display the love and fearlessness that we, too, need to develop to reach our own salvation in this world.

Remember:
F.E.A.R. = False Evidence Appearing Real.
L.O.V.E. = Living One Vibrational Energy

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 28th
10:54 CPT

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Let me get this straight: God created inherently imperfect beings, then demanded of them to be perfect or face damnation. Then, seen as we can’t be perfect - meaning that God demanded the impossible of Himself to start with and set Himself up for failure - He changed his mind and said we simply have to feel bad when not doing good and accept Jesus, the one perfect One as our saviour, so we can still somehow satisfy God’s hunger for perfection through someone else?

Further more, you say Jesus saved us from our imperfection - the imperfection that God gave us. In other words, you say God’s son has saved us from what His father did, whereas God Himself is the almighty one?

Sorry, Mister Pastor. You’ve got something twisted. It seems you’re underestimating who, and what, God is greatly.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 22nd
16:45 CPT

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We always claim that we were created in God’s image, but few people ever speak of how God was created in Our image as well.

Since birth, we have been raised by our parents that doing ‘good’ equals praise and doing ‘bad’ equals punishment. In Biblical times, this concept was even stronger. Could it be then, that we see God as a being that praises and punishes because the gods of our world - namely our parents - have taught us that’s how it’s done throughout history? Could it be, that since our parents judge, and we apply our own imperfect image of what a parent ought to be to our image of God, that we wrongly believe God to be the same and judge too? After all, no prophet was one to judge and dish out punishment. They merely gave praise where due.

Could it be, that the idea of a God who is not feared, Who will not judge and Who has no cause to punish, is simply too great and too far beyond our comprehension of Who and What God is?

Could it be, that by relating God to human experience through books, we actually degrade God, and that He is truly much, much greater than any of our man-written Holy books will ever teach us?

Now that’s something to consider.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 21st
19:51 CPT

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Honestly, sometimes I feel for the hip hop listeners being born today. In my time, I’ve experienced the rise and decline of legends like 2Pac, Biggie, The Wu Tang Clan, Nas, Immortal Technique, Eminem… Who will these kids have? Lil Wayne? Nicki Minaj? Call me a hater, but even folks like Kendrick don’t do it like the older folks used to. Nas was able to solidify my entire view on abortion with one simple line; ‘what if the virgin Mary had an abortion?’ - now THAT is what I respect. Using your lyrics and artistry in a way that grabs hold of brains so fast, the listener can’t help but be forced to think.

Our entire society consists of ideas. They run our lives. Media - an idea. Religion - an idea. Money - an idea. Figure out how to use your words to put the right ideas into people’s heads, and you’ll be amongst the legends. For then, you won’t simply be an artist anymore - you’ll be a part of the change in them, and thus, a part of them. Genuinely shaping people’s characters and lives for the better through music - that’s a skill that seems far too rare these days.

Only one thing to do: Time for me to rise and save our youth. ;)

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 20th
13:00 CPT

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NEVER tell yourself that you’re not enough, for YOU are MORE than enough. Sure, a certain skill of yours may lack compared to others, but your skills are not YOU, they are merely your ASSETS. And unlike you - the soul - your assets can be build upon. All you’re doing when telling yourself that YOU are not enough, is creating your own dead end. Why? Because unlike your assets, YOU cannot be added onto any further. YOU are ALREADY perfect. Thus, telling yourself that YOU are not enough and must improve, is giving yourself an impossible mission.

Do not believe the world’s lies. You were not born in sin. You were created in God’s image and since He is perfect, He does not create imperfection. It is this world that you’re born into that makes you imperfect by leading you to believe that’s what you are. This world tells you that you were born a sinner, and thus, you sin as if it’s what you were born to do. Yet, believing this is the biggest sin of all, as believing that you are not enough, when you are actually God’s perfect creation, is not only a sin against your Creator, but also against you, His Creation. For it is this belief that limits you most.

The fruit is only as complete as the tree. How will you ever be able to create a life that’s ‘enough’, when you, the One creating your life, view yourself as ‘not enough’?

Your assets may be imperfect, yes. Those you will always be able to improve. They will always lack something. But YOU, you lack nothing. You have everything you need right within yourself. You are a perfect being.

YOU are more than enough.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 13th
14:30 CPT

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To be truly content in life, your logic and instinct must be balanced. When you’re faced with a choice, often you’ll find that part of you knows the correct answer right away. Part of you can FEEL the answer. That’s your instinct. Yet, shortly after, logic kicks in and you second guess yourself, weighing up the good and the bad results of different decisions to find the best one, thus throwing your instinct out the window.

Sure, we live in a world where one needs to make calculated decisions at times, so by all means, act in this way. However, once your logic has had her turn, take a minute to clear your mind, close your eyes and envision the question again. Then, feel what your instinct says and give her a chance, too. Don’t think for an answer, just feel.

Once you do this often enough, and see enough evidence of your instinct being correct, your logic will learn to trust your instinct, the two will stop battling, and you will feel content. For the only battle that can ever fully stop you from being content, is the one waged within yourself.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 12th
10:44 CPT

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Think about this: God calls us His greatest creation because humans have free will. Thus, for heaven to be perfect, we’d need free will there too. If that’s the case, what’s stopping us from f*cking heaven up the same way we f*cked earth?

Wake up, folks. It’s up to us to create our own heaven. Don’t wait for the day God may give you a perfect paradise. We must wake up the God within ourselves, realize that we’re not destroyers but healers, and start creating paradise ourselves, NOW.

God helps those that help themselves. Never forget.

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—  Cicatrixx 
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May 5th
14:01 CPT

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"Life is all about multiplication. Spend your time and money on things and people that are worth more than the time and money you spend on them, and you’ll receive what you put in multiplied. Spend your time and money on undeserving things and people that give nothing in return, and you’ll be sucked dry without progressing. It’s not all about giving your best and what you invest. It’s about what/whom you give your best to and what/whom you invest in."
—  Cicatrixx 
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February 28th
10:44 CPT

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"Ladies are multipliers. Anything you give them, they multiply…" - Cicatrixx
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"Ladies are multipliers. Anything you give them, they multiply…" - Cicatrixx

Discover ‘Dreams Of A Poet’ (DOAP): www.iselldoap.tumblr.com

February 5th
10:54 CPT

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'If Jesus is listening, he better wear headphones. My music contains more truth than my prayers ever will.' - Cicatrixx

'If Jesus is listening, he better wear headphones. My music contains more truth than my prayers ever will.' - Cicatrixx